What a great way to start a morning. I didn't get the greatest sleep last night which I believe led to my vulnerable morning mind. I stretch and roll over to see the photo of my father on the wall. In this picture he his making his famous funny face which brings me smile. Quickly … Continue reading Flashbacks and Anxiety Attacks
Last week I started smoking cigarettes. I had smoked before. The week after my boyfriend and I broke up. The same boyfriend who cheated on me three times..waited over a year to tell me... and convinced me to stay for another 6 months. It was necessary. I hadn't smoked since then but since I started … Continue reading Bye-Bye Bad habit!
Today marks day one that I begin taking a medication to help manage my depression. I cant believe it got to this point, but I'm not willing to let this disorder win. Here's to Hope. Love until later, Dani
As I sit here crying, hyperventilating, I find peace in the tapping of my fingertips on these keys. The noise it makes as I am frantically spreading my words, reminds me of the sound my heart makes as it's pounding out of my chest. Last year.. God, or whoever the fuck makes decisions, gave … Continue reading 1:00am Panic
Noise machines. Brief and quiet stares. Forced tomorrows. Magazine pages flipping between nervous fingers. Sips of water to drown the sorrow. --- Here I wait. For my therapist to peak her head from her purposely decorated office. Impatiently waiting to hear me utter the news of the past week. Watching the clock tick it's tocks. … Continue reading Don’t try to fix me. I’m not broken.
Aspire to inspire before you expire.
I wish I had the anger inside of me to spite you. I wish I had the fear inside of me to fight you. But one more patronizing word out of those lips, And I promise my hands around your throat like grips.